Ice Land
It’s been a while. I’m okay, but feel a bit malplaced somehow. And all these tiny annoyances from family, friends and foes (well, not so much foes).
Mind your own business. And please, stop blaming me for every little thing. I don’t want to be too helpful, as most of what ever seems to come out of it is ungratefulness anyway. Apparently taking responsibility for my own actions isn’t enough. I’m tired of taking the blame for so much out of my reach, so much that I’ve had nothing to say in, nothing to do with. Just stop it.
I wanted to go to Iceland so badly a few days ago; couldn’t because it was my birthday yesterday, and I don’t want to worry my family. Nothing keeps me from going now, I guess.
On. Off. On. Off. On. Off. On. Off. This isn’t binary, it’s life! (And I should be the one to say that?) – I wonder if being all alone is better in the long run? After all, you avoid “the giving and receiving of irritation that results from social interaction”.
… But I don’t see why everything has to be made as complex as it does. It’s really quite simple. Yet no-one (including me) seem to have the slightest clue what they want.
It was my birthday yesterday. And I can’t even be upset, because no-one did anything wrong. Thank Christ. Well, that’s not entirely true … although I didn’t let anything ruin the day.
It was actually quite nice; had some close family over for dinner, got a Wiimote and too much money. The night was somewhat problematic, but not too bad altogether. After all, sharing deep thoughts and meaningful opinions can be very interesting and intimate.
… I don’t want to be left alone for someone temporarily better than me.
Actually, writing this was just what I needed. I feel quite well now. And as always, take these rants with a grain of salt.
Or a grin of salt, if you’re so inclined ;)